Thursday, December 05, 2019

a tisket a tasket

I'm getting very side-tracked with my grandomther's basket quilt.
I worked on it for most of Monday, our first day home after Mexico trip.
I thought of mending each square before working on it.
nah
I questioned why I felt that I needed to do anything with it.
I tried to do something with it back in 2007 and ended up making a paper quilt.
Folded the real one up for twelve more years.
The thing is, it's quite badly made.
Machine stitching is mixed with hand stitching - and this is for both applique and the quilting.
It's as if my grandmother, my mother's mother, didn't know what she was doing.
She was just going for it
 I think she stopped working on it because she didn't know how to proceed.
I've been told that I am a lot like her...and handling these patches makes me feel her more closely.
She's right here.
She doesn't mind that I decided to cut her work up.
She's glad that I am working with it.
She was an amazing gardener.  and painter.
This always happens to me when I come home from a trip.
I'm faced with a house FULL of artifacts of our long life together,
and I start to put everything in order.

By making new things out of them!  It's so foolish. 
What I need to do is turn my back on it all and get back to me.
pure me....moving forward.

But instead I wallow in my - our- past.
My grandmother's quilt is just a passing phase.  I will get over it.
But for now, it is what I'm working on.
I'm thinking of treating the patched and mended piece like a Japanese boro
densely stitched with big threads.
Lord, save me from myself.
The physical act of making is a way of clearing the mind from demands of the outside world.  Somewhere between the heart and the mind is a state of concentration out of which ideas and insights emerge. 
Mary Jane Jacobs 

14 comments:

  1. Very interesting post Judy. So sweet. It will be very interesting to see your work going forward after you have spent time in your grandmother's company.
    I see in one of your paragraphs different words.....But instead I am grounded in my-our-past. My grandmother's quilt is a comforting phase. I will embrace it. For now, it is what I'm working on.
    Much love Judy.

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    1. thank you
      I love the way you could hear a gentler, kinder me.
      You are right - I am feeling comforted by this quilt, even though I am frustrated by the beginner quality of it, when I grew up thinking of her as someone who knew how to make beautiful clothes for my aunt and my mother.
      Yes, I will embrace this comforting phase. For now, it is what I'm working on xo
      much love to you, Jackie. xo

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  2. a collaboration of time and blood lines

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  3. Thought you might like this link: http://vintagecraftsandmore.com/tag/nancy-page/ . Enjoy your musings about your grandmother's quilt. Very sweet to travel back in time to appreciate her even more.

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    1. Thank you. I went to the link and it was very nice to see the pattern and the date of the weekly newspaper patterns. I have worked out that my grandmother was about 40 when she made the quilt from these published patterns - and was busy with 4 little children at the same time, all born in the 20's with the baby born 1929. My mother was born 1927. I think that making this quilt was very nurturing for my grandmother. Each block was lovingly stitched. xo

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  4. Here is one more: http://www.coveringquilthistory.com/nancy-pages-garden-bouquet.php This is the story of my like ~ starting down a path that side tracks me to learn a little more. A good thing I think.

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    1. Thanks for that link as well. It sounds as if we are both easily side-tracked into personal discovery. Yes - a good thing. Thanks for both of these informative links xo

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  5. Your work on this quilt may inspire another person
    in your family's future? I love the baskets holding different flowers.

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    1. I love the idea of making something for the future generation to touch and understand. It's very life-affirming and hopeful to create for that purpose. Thanks for your note. I also love that each basket has a different flower. They reflect Ethel Jane's huge creativity and love of her flower garden. xo

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  6. So glad you got to add more to the story. It's wonderful!

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  7. the same happens to me when I've been away (sometimes after just one night!) I think it has to do with (gently) settling back into one's own life.....by starting out with something to do with 'tidying up' I find it easier to feel 'at home ' again
    love the quote btw

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  8. I have so enjoyed reading this post Judy with your thoughts and your grandmother's quilt. I never knew any of my grandparents, they had all passed on before I was born.
    I like that you had no qualms about cutting the squares out of the quilt and your idea of possibly using the Japanese Boro stitching , I think it would look perfectly at home!

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  9. I so get where you are going here Judy. Happens to me all the time.

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Thank you for taking the time to connect. Much appreciated.xx