A diary
March 1: With a washable marker I began to fill in the circle. My idea is to use concentric rings of triangles and work my way to the centre. The first ring is three inches wide.
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| the house with the golden windows |
In 1993 I made a paper and canvas piece entitled The House With the Golden Windows. It was inspired by a childhood memory from when our family drove home from Fort Frances. My mother would half turn her head from the front seat and point at the small farm houses set back from the road, their windows glinting from the late afternoon sun. “Look at the golden windows” she said.
Last week I found an envelope of black and white photos of the house. I'd like to talk about them in today's blog post.
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| Helene Cixous |
I believe that this sewn house is feminine writing because it shines a light on the domestic day to day. It makes that daily life shine while using feminine techniques and materials.
For one year, I took a photo every day from within the house I lived in with my family in Kenora, Ontario. Every day I chose an interesting or beautiful sight from one of the windows, and then snapped it with my film camera. Although the east side of the house did not have many windows I did take a few from the window over the kitchen sink that looked directly at where the neighbour kept his garbage cans.
However, my favourite view was of the back yard. It could be seen from the many north windows and most of the 365 photos are from the north side of the house.
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| the north wall interior |
I was a mother artist when I made this piece. You can see the children's sandbox from the north facing windows. The house was finished in time to exhibit it in the Lakehead University degree show in the spring of 1993. We moved to Manitoulin that same year.
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| this detail of the north window shows the maple tree and the neighbour's fence |
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| the house with the golden windows, 1993 |
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| Ann Hamilton |
Ann Hamilton, (born 1956), was working with the idea of the body as a way of knowing during that time. There was an article about her installations in an early 90's Fiber Art magazine when I was just coming up with the
idea to make this house. Although I wasn't yet familiar with Helene Cixous, I knew about Ann Hamilton.
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| Louise Bourgeois |
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| Femme Maison 1946 by Louise Bourgeois |
Louise Bourgeois was 35 years old and was raising three boys when she made this piece. She believed that the domestic world of a mother artist was worth making art about.
“Art is not about art. Art is about life, and that sums it up." she said.
But what emotion do you think Louise Bourgeois is communicating with her image of a woman squeezed into a building? She made other Femme Maison pieces. See here.
This house is about domesticity, yet it is not a domestic object.
This piece was made for an art gallery. The reason that I don't have good photos of it is that it needs an art gallery kind of space to install it in.
I believe that quilts are art. I have always believed that. By making an installation like this, obviously for exhibition, I help others to realize that sewing and patchwork are valid techniques for art making.
I turned 40 in 1991, and was just beginning to take ownership of the idea that I could be an artist and a mother at the same time. I leaned into art as a kind of salvation. I didn’t keep my art passion a secret from the family, but I also didn’t talk about it. I did it. I also did my best to be a good mother. I don't know how I did it now that I look back. People ask.
I do know that my art was and is a place for me to be truly me.
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| There were many holes in the quilt and so I covered them with large brightly coloured velvet circles and ovals. When I quiltedthe piece, I followed the original blue threads. And then put the piece into the washer and the distortion happened. Poet in Love Mended (or something like that) in 2022 |
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| We've been using You Are a Single Star on our bed, and it has been lovely. Large and heavy. |
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| But part of the reason why I think that quilts are such an important and profound art medium is because they are like the human body and will not last forever. The fact that they carry their own death with them all the time, even while they care for my loved ones and are so beautiful while doing that, is what makes them authentic and meaningful for me. |
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| Quilts are, to borrow from novelist Ocean Vuong, who wrote the exquisite book in 2019, Briefly Gorgeous. When I mend quilts, I am continuing the work of these visible, touchable documents about care. I may be able to extend the life of them for 50 years or so if I used new cloth, but cloth eventually gets old and wears out, no matter what we do. |
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| Listening for the Quiet Sounds by Dorothy Caldwell, 6 x 9 feet, 2023 |
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| Listening for the Quiet Sounds (detail) by Dorotny Caldwell Earth pigments screen printed onto cotton with ink washes, applique, stitching |
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| January |
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| February |
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| March |
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| April |
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| May |
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| June |
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| July |
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| August |
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| September |
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| October |
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| November |
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| December |
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| My Trembling Heart on the studio wall,with journals and the book I read while biking. |
The kids are starting to arrive today. Ned and I have been getting the house ready.
I have also been finishing up the trembling heart piece in the evenings.
Actually, I've been procrastinating on everything. I give myself so much slack these days.
For example, I spent two hours mending my foot pillow, (it was not on the to-do list).
I've only removed the autumn clutter from the living room, and baby proofed it. Those crystal decanters on the mantelpiece are heirlooms from Ned's family. We're giving one to each of our kids this year as we de-clutter and carry on through our 70's.