My laptop has been acting up, and I'm not sure how much I can write before it acts up again.
The laptop has become more important for me during this year of zoom. I wish I didn't need it quite so much and I do avoid it on the weekends.
I suppose it has hurt feelings.
Have you noticed how the light is changing?
We added a fourth quilt this week. I didn't think we needed it but the added weight has improved our sleep. Sleep has become another important thing for me during this pandemic year.
But about that light. There has been a shift.
I felt brave at the beginning of March.
I drew with velvet shapes on the back of a large piece.
I thought I wanted to make something on the verso side that was bold and other.
I put shapes on,
I took them off,
I put some back,
I removed some more.
I also added stitch to the front, but wasn't sure about how much and what mark?
It was in a real relationship with this piece.
Relationships teach me. By doing my work, I learn more and more about myself. For instance, I learn to simplify and I learn that simplification is difficult.
In my mothering relationships, I've learned that love is bottomless. There is so much love inside each of us, and when we give it away, there is still lots left. Be generous with it.
Above is a photo of the front of the large piece.
Why do I need to make such a bold drawing on the back?
The front is calm and beautiful on its own. It's almost empty.
Why do I feel that it is necessary to disrupt this calm with marks made on the verso side?
Maybe I don't.
Maybe I won't.
I think about love relationships and how much I've learned. Love is bottomless.
I also think about death. It's not gloomy or dire, but it is constantly there with me. The fragility of us.
In other areas of my so called normal life, I can't talk or think bout these things, but when I do my artwork, I can.
I've also been starting several new nine-patch quilts.
One after the other.
I'm not in a panic about them, but they are bubbling up. They are so easy and make me happy.
Little flings.
"The reason I make things is because I find a real peace in the act of doing. When there is something repetitive and set out as a task, you can shut off a part of yourself. Once you do this, that part of yourself has had a deep rest. It feels so good that it is almost like a drug." Tammi Campbell
Above is a photo I took yesterday.
It shows the second side of a small piece I made in 2013.
I worked from both sides when I made it. Actually, they are both the verso side, the wrong side.
They are both the inside.
I called it Yin Yin because it has two yins, no yang.
The photograph documents the beginning of the snow melt and the still bare winter trees.
All this will change.
My quilts hold all my thoughts. They are a kind of universe.
They are a place of touch.