I came across this old journal entry today.
October 19, 2000
If I want to find my true voice as an artist, not only do I have to stop teaching art, I have to stop selling it. I have to not worry about the Perivale, or any other commercial space.
I have been reading Georgia O'Keefe's autobiography. Over and over she says - "My paintings are my own way of communicating." "I can say things with colour and shape that I can't say in any other way - things that I have no words for."
So if I can manage it, I would like to take a sabbatical from these four things.
1. teaching quilting skills
2. teaching painting skills
3. community quilt and art club work
4. selling paintings.
I found this old journal entry to be interesting because I did stop teaching quilting and painting for five years. I've also stepped away from executive memberships in the local quilt and art clubs. There's no doubt in my mind that this self-imposed sabbatical has had a positive effect on my work.
However, Sheila McMullan, the owner of the Perivale gallery, constantly encouraged work that often proved to be non commercial and I continued to exhibit with her.
I've recently returned to teaching my art (watercolour painting and art quilting)as well as twenty four private piano lessons each week. There's just not enough time. I'd really like to change my painting style and do something more like what Sylvia Edwards does. Shall see what comes.