What I do know is that I do not know.
My path does not already exist, it comes into existence moment by moment and at the same time, it drops away.
My father passed away very peacefully early yesterday morning.
He always always gave me unconditional support and love.
never criticized me, taught me how to drive.
I've written about him many times over the years. Here is the first time.
I shared his mantra here.
For more about him, and our relationshiop, click on the dad link in the side bar.
I am feeling something but can't quite name it. I suppose it is grief.
My path does not already exist, it comes into existence moment by moment and at the same time, it drops away.
My father passed away very peacefully early yesterday morning.
He always always gave me unconditional support and love.
never criticized me, taught me how to drive.
I've written about him many times over the years. Here is the first time.
I shared his mantra here.
For more about him, and our relationshiop, click on the dad link in the side bar.
I am feeling something but can't quite name it. I suppose it is grief.
May 14 1923 - July 17 2017
Judy, I am so very sorry for your loss, I hope you take care of yourself during this time and feel comfort in his wonderful memories.
ReplyDeleteHugs and Prayers.
ReplyDeleteIn the stillness that follows a passing there is peace.
Your heart will hold this moment and cherish it in the future.
Love. Peace and grace to you.
Love to you, Judy
ReplyDeleteSorry for your loss. My condolences.
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ReplyDeletePeace be with you and yours ...
ReplyDeleteDear Judy, sorry for the loss of your father. I know that feeling of being lost, wishing you and your family strength
ReplyDeleteSending prayers and deep condolences during this difficult time. ox
ReplyDelete(((Judy)))
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear of your loss-it is hard to lose a parent.
ReplyDeleteAll the best Judy in this sad time
ReplyDeletemuch love to you and yours, Judy
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss, sincere sympathy
ReplyDeleteBeautiful.
ReplyDeleteLove and comfort to you and yours.
Judy, I'm sad to read this. A peaceful death is a blessing. To know you are loved is a blessing.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss of your father...I love "one piece of bologna at a time"!! That's one I'll remember!
ReplyDeleteWhen my father died at 103, Judy, I felt and continue to feel unmoored even though I am not young and have long been as stable as my father's example and love made me.
ReplyDeleteI am learning to live unmoored and, in time, I think I will come to see that this, itself, is a freedom. A final freedom.
I don't know if you will go through a similar path now. Whatever your path, blessings, Judy. Many blessings.
Reading at 8:15PM on the 18th...I wept...not crying just watery and the feeling of that--that I feel this loss, though not mine, as mine because I love and admire you and have come to know your father a little through you. My own father died suddenly the day before his fifty first birthday when I was only ten. Fathers and Mothers-the loss of them whenever it inevitably arrives is, I think, for each being, a continental shift in place...an unmooring as Sarah says. I will go to the father links now and spend a little time with yours.
ReplyDeleteMay you be surrounded by much love from family and friends to comfort you at this difficult time. So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSigh. Peace and love to you, Judy.
ReplyDeleteI was brought here by Catriona Giglio...and it made me ask my Dad to welcome in your Dad. My Dad has been in the next place since 1957 and I miss him...as you will yours. It takes both sunshine and rain to make a rainbow. xxx
ReplyDeleteOh Judy, I'm so sorry to hear you have lost someone so special in your life. Wishing you a peaceful time grieving.
ReplyDeleteIt is always a difficult and painful moment in our lives to fully accept a parent's death, and from there to move on. Please accept my deepest felt condolences.
ReplyDeleteA prayer and love are sent your way Judy at this very painful time.
ReplyDeleteLynn xx
Sorry for your loss, think of the good days with him, he will never be forgotten.I send you all my positive thoughts. May God give you strength.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. You and your father are in my prayers
ReplyDeletePatience, love, support, all unconditional, and devotion beyond reproach. All lessons shared by father to daughter and back again. My deepest condolences Judy.
ReplyDeletePeace...
Love, bethany
So sorry for your loss Judy. My condolences to you and your family. Your dad will always be with you May he rest in peace. Love, Vivian
ReplyDeleteSending sympathy and love.
ReplyDeleteCloth rests in your hands
ReplyDeleteAs you laugh and love and grieve
The stitch keeps going
I grieve with you Judy. I lost both my parents and knowing they are at peace helps finding ours. x
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss. Our deepest condolences, Judy.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss, Judy. But glad your dad went peacefully, also that he was such a wonderful father to you. xx
ReplyDeleteoh, dear judy, i am sorry to hear this, but send you my warmest, heartfelt caring. be gentle with yourself.
ReplyDeleteI came here long ago and love reading your words and seeing the work you put so much of yourself into. I am reminded of the many times you wrote your posts while sitting beside your dad's bed. that visual comforted me. My father is gone and I am reminded of the long day and night I sat by his bed and talked to him while he made his way out of my life. But not my heart. Thank you for sharing your love for him (and his for you) with all of us.
ReplyDeleteThese comments are so full of love I am lifted up. Thank you very much for so much support and caring. Thank you everyone for understanding and connecting with the vulnerability I am feeling now.
ReplyDeleteMy father and I had a relationship that will never leave me. He will always be part of me as I go forward, not knowing what comes next in my life's path. His unconditional love has given me strength in the past and it will continue to do so, I know this.
xoxo
So sorry for your loss. Your love is immense and will carry you through x
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to read about the loss of your father.
ReplyDeleteJudy, a place in my heart went out to you upon reading about Dad. A lovely tribute. Losing both of my parents some time ago, I realized that no matter what age we "kids" are at, they are still Mom and Dad.
ReplyDeleteJudy, I am sorry to read about your dad's passing. Your 'feeling of something' will translate into a beautiful art piece just like you did when your mom was ill and your spent all the time by her side- twenty four hours of care, I think it is called. I LOVE that piece. You were able to transmit to the viewer your emotions then. All the emotions you are experiencing now, from reliving the wonderful memories with him to the sorrow that you feel, will settle into something you understand. It takes time. My heartfelt condolence to you and Ned and the kids.
ReplyDeleteso sorry for your loss. mine left nearly four years ago, his mind left even longer ago...but I'm still processing it.
ReplyDeletesometimes I think we never recover from these losses, they leave us different.
on the other hand, the memories are like a precious book we can dip into again and again
It is grief, the fabric of your life ripping along the true grain. I'm glad and grateful that it was a peaceful transition. You will miss him. I will, too. xo
ReplyDeleteAll my love for you, Judy.
ReplyDeleteIt is an honor to share all the good an the bad moments of your live.
xx