opening the door

 Trinity came back from exhibition in Vancouver and I was able to touch it again.

(now when i don't know what to do next

taking space between thoughts

pausing,

looking at the sky a lot )

I needed to re-place the velcro strip
and re-mount the textile on it's supporting board,
and then return it to the local church's pulpit.

(just being present

and having self confidence

even while not knowing)

In the book, MY RELIGION, Leo Tolstoy implies that whatever happens in a violent revolution, there will also be an inner and hidden revolution in the people, out of which a new religion will be born which  will have the same effect of making life possible as the Christian religion used to.

We shall have had enough of cynicism, scepticism and humbug, and will want to live more musically.  How will this come about, and what will we discover?  

Instead of seeing absolutely nothing in the future other than the disasters that are bound to strike the modern world and civilization like so many thunderbolts, through revolution or war or the bankruptcy of worm eaten states. 

 Vincent Van Gogh letter to his brother Theo September 24 1888

(being kind to myself

becoming kinder to others

opening that door more and more

seeing what happens when I don't protect myself so much )

signed

judy evelyn grandmom