Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Peaceful

What I do know is that I do not know.
My path does not already exist, it comes into existence moment by moment and at the same time, it drops away.
My father passed away very peacefully early yesterday morning.

He always always gave me unconditional support and love.
never criticized me, taught me how to drive.

I've written about him many times over the years.  Here is the first time.
I shared  his mantra here.
For more about him, and our relationshiop, click on the dad link in the side bar.

I am feeling something but can't quite name it.   I suppose it is grief.

May 14 1923 - July 17 2017 
 Paul Elmer Johnson

full obituary here

43 comments:

Tina said...

Judy, I am so very sorry for your loss, I hope you take care of yourself during this time and feel comfort in his wonderful memories.

Cedar Ridge Studio said...

Hugs and Prayers.
In the stillness that follows a passing there is peace.
Your heart will hold this moment and cherish it in the future.
Love. Peace and grace to you.

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

Love to you, Judy

Lola r said...

Sorry for your loss. My condolences.

Liesbeth Williams said...
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Liz A said...

Peace be with you and yours ...

Mostly Turquoise said...

Dear Judy, sorry for the loss of your father. I know that feeling of being lost, wishing you and your family strength

over the rainbow said...

Sending prayers and deep condolences during this difficult time. ox

Mo Crow said...

(((Judy)))

Gail Baar said...

Sorry to hear of your loss-it is hard to lose a parent.

Els said...

All the best Judy in this sad time

Susan said...

much love to you and yours, Judy

Barb Robson said...

So sorry to hear of your loss, sincere sympathy

Hazel said...

Beautiful.
Love and comfort to you and yours.

Stephanie Jo said...

Judy, I'm sad to read this. A peaceful death is a blessing. To know you are loved is a blessing.

Robbie said...

So sorry for your loss of your father...I love "one piece of bologna at a time"!! That's one I'll remember!

Sarah Abraham said...

When my father died at 103, Judy, I felt and continue to feel unmoored even though I am not young and have long been as stable as my father's example and love made me.

I am learning to live unmoored and, in time, I think I will come to see that this, itself, is a freedom. A final freedom.

I don't know if you will go through a similar path now. Whatever your path, blessings, Judy. Many blessings.

Ms. said...

Reading at 8:15PM on the 18th...I wept...not crying just watery and the feeling of that--that I feel this loss, though not mine, as mine because I love and admire you and have come to know your father a little through you. My own father died suddenly the day before his fifty first birthday when I was only ten. Fathers and Mothers-the loss of them whenever it inevitably arrives is, I think, for each being, a continental shift in place...an unmooring as Sarah says. I will go to the father links now and spend a little time with yours.

sbsudbury said...

May you be surrounded by much love from family and friends to comfort you at this difficult time. So sorry for your loss.

Suzanna said...

Sigh. Peace and love to you, Judy.

Bonnie Miller said...

I was brought here by Catriona Giglio...and it made me ask my Dad to welcome in your Dad. My Dad has been in the next place since 1957 and I miss him...as you will yours. It takes both sunshine and rain to make a rainbow. xxx

Lesley Turner said...

Oh Judy, I'm so sorry to hear you have lost someone so special in your life. Wishing you a peaceful time grieving.

blandina said...

It is always a difficult and painful moment in our lives to fully accept a parent's death, and from there to move on. Please accept my deepest felt condolences.

Lynn Holland said...

A prayer and love are sent your way Judy at this very painful time.
Lynn xx

cheyenne said...

Sorry for your loss, think of the good days with him, he will never be forgotten.I send you all my positive thoughts. May God give you strength.

susan hemann said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your father are in my prayers

B. Garner said...

Patience, love, support, all unconditional, and devotion beyond reproach. All lessons shared by father to daughter and back again. My deepest condolences Judy.
Peace...
Love, bethany

Vivian Cothros said...

So sorry for your loss Judy. My condolences to you and your family. Your dad will always be with you May he rest in peace. Love, Vivian

Cris Winters said...

Sending sympathy and love.

Carol Wiebe said...

Cloth rests in your hands
As you laugh and love and grieve
The stitch keeps going

henrietta (aka ani aka zani) said...

I grieve with you Judy. I lost both my parents and knowing they are at peace helps finding ours. x

Lorraine Roy said...

So sorry to hear of your loss. Our deepest condolences, Judy.

Connie Rose said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Judy. But glad your dad went peacefully, also that he was such a wonderful father to you. xx

Velma Bolyard said...

oh, dear judy, i am sorry to hear this, but send you my warmest, heartfelt caring. be gentle with yourself.

Joanne S said...

I came here long ago and love reading your words and seeing the work you put so much of yourself into. I am reminded of the many times you wrote your posts while sitting beside your dad's bed. that visual comforted me. My father is gone and I am reminded of the long day and night I sat by his bed and talked to him while he made his way out of my life. But not my heart. Thank you for sharing your love for him (and his for you) with all of us.

Judy Martin said...

These comments are so full of love I am lifted up. Thank you very much for so much support and caring. Thank you everyone for understanding and connecting with the vulnerability I am feeling now.

My father and I had a relationship that will never leave me. He will always be part of me as I go forward, not knowing what comes next in my life's path. His unconditional love has given me strength in the past and it will continue to do so, I know this.

xoxo

AuntieAvril said...

So sorry for your loss. Your love is immense and will carry you through x

Mystic Quilter said...

So sorry to read about the loss of your father.

Sue McQ said...

Judy, a place in my heart went out to you upon reading about Dad. A lovely tribute. Losing both of my parents some time ago, I realized that no matter what age we "kids" are at, they are still Mom and Dad.

Sandra said...

Judy, I am sorry to read about your dad's passing. Your 'feeling of something' will translate into a beautiful art piece just like you did when your mom was ill and your spent all the time by her side- twenty four hours of care, I think it is called. I LOVE that piece. You were able to transmit to the viewer your emotions then. All the emotions you are experiencing now, from reliving the wonderful memories with him to the sorrow that you feel, will settle into something you understand. It takes time. My heartfelt condolence to you and Ned and the kids.

india flint said...

so sorry for your loss. mine left nearly four years ago, his mind left even longer ago...but I'm still processing it.
sometimes I think we never recover from these losses, they leave us different.
on the other hand, the memories are like a precious book we can dip into again and again

wholly jeanne said...

It is grief, the fabric of your life ripping along the true grain. I'm glad and grateful that it was a peaceful transition. You will miss him. I will, too. xo

Montse Llamas said...

All my love for you, Judy.
It is an honor to share all the good an the bad moments of your live.
xx